Wednesday 2 September 2015

Too Far Out



At low tide, the retreating sea exposes a huge area of sand along the north-west coast of England.  The shallow tilt of the seabed means the water moves far away and the land extends beckoningly in its wake.  In Morecambe Bay the Ordnance Survey maps show public rights of way crossing this intermittently uncovered landscape but with dire warnings of going there without an experienced guide.  This year, as part of an activity organised by my employer’s charity partner, Action for Children, I had the opportunity to make a crossing of the bay in the company of Cedric Robinson MBE, the Queen’s Guide to the Sands, and one or two hundred other walkers.
It makes sense to cross in a big party, otherwise Cedric would be back and forth all the time to earn his £15 per annum.  Everyone was in a jolly mood, somewhat masking a slight sense of trepidation about what we were embarking on.  How safe was it?  What if the weather turned, as the forecast hinted it could?  Thoughts of the Chinese cockle-pickers, left to die by exploitative gangmasters in the fast-rising tide, hovered around the backs of our minds.
With it being such a large party, only a few people were close enough to receive Cedric’s instructions first-hand, but somehow everyone snaked off along the route in crocodile-fashion, if a rather over-stuffed crocodile.  Cedric rode a tractor and sent his helpers out to keep people on track.  At one point, congregating by a body of water awaiting further instructions, some people set off.  ‘They’ve not been told where to go,’ Cedric was heard to mutter darkly, ‘they’ll get into trouble.’  Nevertheless they all headed, by some sort of herd instinct, between the laurel branches that the guides had planted in the sand some time earlier to show where the safe route was.
After one water crossing I found myself in the front of the throng and turned back to see the masses splashing and laughing their way through the channel.  It made me think of the Israelites crossing the Red Sea into the Promised Land, although we were nothing more than a group of paying individuals, all out for a good time.  And Cedric was no Cecil B De Mille.  ‘Are you Mr Robinson?’ someone asked him.  ‘Cedric,’ he replied, gruffly.


Given that we were going to cross some standing water, I, along with a number of others, had elected to ditch the shoes early on.  At first I wasn’t sure this was the right option.  The drier parts of the dark sand were sculpted into long flowing ridges and it was like walking over the endless ribcages of dead creatures.  My feet were getting a brutish kind of massage.  At other times I felt the well-publicised patches of quicksand.  The surface bowed beneath my step like a soft plasterboard ceiling you’re about to put your foot through when up in the loft.  In some places the sand was much more waterlogged and felt comfortable and soft.  There were many cockleshells scattered on the ground, broken up by the waves or scavenging birds.  The way the daily tides moved the silt, constantly changing the course of the River Kent that cut along the centre of our route, seemed to have sifted out fragments of shell into one particularly gritty, if not uncomfortable, section.
It was a warm day though overcast.  Far into the walk the rain started to fall, heavily for a time, and we all reached for our jackets.  The distant hulk of Heysham power station vanished from sight, as did a certain amount of the coastline around us.  It added to the sense of disorientation I had been feeling anyway.  I knew we were supposed to cross from Arnside to Kent’s Bank, just west of Grange-over-Sands, but I couldn’t understand why we were walking towards Heysham, somewhere far to the south.  Ahead of us was nothingness, just the long flat line of the horizon.  Under the grey skies, the water and the wet sand, and the sky itself, merged into one another.  Robert MacFarlane talks about the horizon drawing us on as much as a mountain top draws us up.
We had stopped at the first body of water we came to and I was expecting us to make a turn.  On being told to carry straight on through the water, it suddenly felt that we could just keep walking on and on into this endless plain.  Left and right hardly made sense any more.  It was a strange feeling in an alien landscape, a ‘xenotopia’, in MacFarlane’s coinage, an ‘out-of-place place’.  Ripples of sand caught what brightness there was, with little wavelets of wormcasts on the ripples’ summits; water stood, unruffled by the wind, in steely masses.  What was solid and what liquid?  Out on the seabed prairie with distant hills behind us, I thought of Stevie Smith, ‘I was always too far out, and not waving but drowning.’
It was exhilarating to have your senses challenged out in the bay and it felt daring to have walked out into a dangerous world, a provisional zone between land and sea.  Boundaries and borders are always thrilling places and this was an odd, transitional space in between the two.  Back on solid, unambiguous dry land, celebrating with cake, we all felt euphoric to have come through the experience.